- Gender
- Not specified
- Country
- Canada
I'd like to think of this like your growing out of your "baby" skin. Kind of like how a snake sheds their outer skin, but more for a personality sense. Some do it, some don't. As for the question itself? I'd like to know the answer to that as well. We're all different people leading different lives, so I wouldn't be too surprised if the answer is completely different for each individual.Surprisingly, I finally thought of a question to ask. It's mostly for myself since it's about me but it's just something I keep thinking about.
Why am I the way I am now? Pretty vague I guess, but I was told by my mother that as a kid, I used to be really energetic and extroverted. Now I'm just being lazy around the place, even before COVID hit I was being lazy. Not only am I lazy, I'm also very introverted now. I talk more to people online and feel like I have a better bond with them than with people in real life. I'm so introverted that talking to my parents isn't easy for me.
I like to think that maybe I became this way after moving from my old house, which was in another country. When I moved houses, I was exposed to a whole new environment, the weather was different, the people were very different and the language I had to speak also had a huge change (I had to learn two new languages).
When my parents ask me what happened to me and why I changed this way, I can't answer them since I don't know what changed. They give different reasons for why it could've happened but I deny all those options since I'm sure none of that changed me. So really, I'm just lost.
To be honest, I feel like social media/screens in general have to do with some personality changes. Myself, for example. I used to enjoy going out all the time when I was younger—I was content with the fact I had no technology other than a scrappy old computer and some cheap flip phones to my family name. (Oh, and also a T.V.) However, that changed when we got an iPad. I learned quickly that staring at screens? It's addicting. You pull up your favourite videos, and as a kid, your eyes never leave that screen. It's one of the reasons why channels targetted for the younger audiences make so much money.
Social media itself changes people. They become so obsessed with what other people think of them, of their pictures, of their followers, likes, that they change their entire lifestyles to match the "trend" of that time. If you're like me, and are not really into Instagram or Snapchat or whatever it is that is very popular right now, you'd think that people like that are... well, not stupid, but wasting their time. It's come to me that pretty much everyone believes that there is a "socially acceptable" figure. That if they do not look or act a certain way, they are not acceptable. While I understand why people would think this, I believe the more important aspect of life would be to be able to accept YOURSELF. You yourself are the "socially acceptable" figure. Know it now, and believe it. This entire comment is off topic, but I feel the need to say this. Or maybe I just like rambling too much, who knows?
Anyway, as a person whose had to move quite a few times in their life (although not to a new country), I'd say that getting to know and make new friends is tiring sometimes. Sometimes I felt as if I made friends only to dump them the next year for new ones at my new school, but I guess that's just what I think. I can see why this could turn someone into a introvert—they'd no longer enjoy really talking to others and therefore keep to themselves or keep to their own small group of friends. This especially if you're moving to a new country, such as you did. I can't imagine what it's like being a completely new country where everyone else spoke this new, foreign language that you now have to learn. Must be terrify terrifying.