intro:
Yeah, what’s your definition of happiness?
I don’t trust most people in my life
I don’t trust my depression and anxiety
who I am and who people want me to be can not connect; why?
Do you think all I deserve is depression? then you’ll get no respect, I just fixed a few problems in my life still not impressed, my edit of stronger than I was apparently is only the best edit so far yeah, okay, okay I guess. Smile for a moment then my depression starts to change my mood, not again!
verse 1:
I push away some people I love; why?
I don’t want people to know that I’m easy to love them and care for them; why?
that makes me feel so weak and too trustful; why?
Stop asking me questions, I just wanna feel happy until I die- this isn’t Eminem’s flow, just let me write lyrics and; in a way I’m in disguise in a way I’m a busy person got no time for lies; one of a kind lad, girls I’ve dated don’t see that, I prove them wrong; I’m on the rise! I’ve been wanting to do this since I was 10 years old with no advice take my chances I just roll the dice, I say what I want in these songs as a kid, I was afraid of dying young and I still am, put that aside now I’m still here and the people who hate me look surprised, well so am woo!
they invite me to family parties but I don’t arrive if I did I would probably open the door then go inside and give off that “I don’t belong here” vibe why do you all look mortified? most of the time I keep to myself some people think I’m sorta shy, organised my edit of Eminem stronger than I was is the only edit of mine you’ve saw of mine? well then your behind story time : wish I could think like Eminem does, but I just can’t decide if I should stick my knife inside of suge Knight
I don’t care what anybody else thinks- lies!
I do need some people to help me
I kinda feel guilty cause I’m too trustful; why? I don’t understand it’s got me questionin like “why?” now I’m still on NF’s flow inside I feel dead on the inside most times back when I ain’t had no friends back before I ever started doing this I was questionin “who am I man?”
many goals in my life I achieve aint good enough to me I could be workin 24 hours a day and still think it’s not good enough my life is like a documentary but with the tension I wanna be great at things I do but I end up getting in the way of it, why do I do it though? why you always stressed? not a choice but you know it just happens, when my relatives talk about the good family members they are most likely not gonna put me and my family in the conversation, like something I do then I gotta accept I did it, I don’t like something I’ve gotta want to erase it what’s the problem marshall? I don’t know!
outro:
I know I like to always tell people to be themselves but my emotions make me feel like I’m always someone else me and my depression and anxiety have made a pact of where we don’t need no help which feels like I’m in a war inside myself but I’ve forgot the ammunition. I tell people my problems but only people I trust and it’s like the same story over again. A lot of people know me but some don’t know me well.
Yeah, what’s your definition of happiness?
I don’t trust most people in my life
I don’t trust my depression and anxiety
who I am and who people want me to be can not connect; why?
Do you think all I deserve is depression? then you’ll get no respect, I just fixed a few problems in my life still not impressed, my edit of stronger than I was apparently is only the best edit so far yeah, okay, okay I guess. Smile for a moment then my depression starts to change my mood, not again!
verse 1:
I push away some people I love; why?
I don’t want people to know that I’m easy to love them and care for them; why?
that makes me feel so weak and too trustful; why?
Stop asking me questions, I just wanna feel happy until I die- this isn’t Eminem’s flow, just let me write lyrics and; in a way I’m in disguise in a way I’m a busy person got no time for lies; one of a kind lad, girls I’ve dated don’t see that, I prove them wrong; I’m on the rise! I’ve been wanting to do this since I was 10 years old with no advice take my chances I just roll the dice, I say what I want in these songs as a kid, I was afraid of dying young and I still am, put that aside now I’m still here and the people who hate me look surprised, well so am woo!
they invite me to family parties but I don’t arrive if I did I would probably open the door then go inside and give off that “I don’t belong here” vibe why do you all look mortified? most of the time I keep to myself some people think I’m sorta shy, organised my edit of Eminem stronger than I was is the only edit of mine you’ve saw of mine? well then your behind story time : wish I could think like Eminem does, but I just can’t decide if I should stick my knife inside of suge Knight
I don’t care what anybody else thinks- lies!
I do need some people to help me
I kinda feel guilty cause I’m too trustful; why? I don’t understand it’s got me questionin like “why?” now I’m still on NF’s flow inside I feel dead on the inside most times back when I ain’t had no friends back before I ever started doing this I was questionin “who am I man?”
many goals in my life I achieve aint good enough to me I could be workin 24 hours a day and still think it’s not good enough my life is like a documentary but with the tension I wanna be great at things I do but I end up getting in the way of it, why do I do it though? why you always stressed? not a choice but you know it just happens, when my relatives talk about the good family members they are most likely not gonna put me and my family in the conversation, like something I do then I gotta accept I did it, I don’t like something I’ve gotta want to erase it what’s the problem marshall? I don’t know!
outro:
I know I like to always tell people to be themselves but my emotions make me feel like I’m always someone else me and my depression and anxiety have made a pact of where we don’t need no help which feels like I’m in a war inside myself but I’ve forgot the ammunition. I tell people my problems but only people I trust and it’s like the same story over again. A lot of people know me but some don’t know me well.
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